Not a second

"Not a second of my time with you was wasted.

Now I know what not to do."

-Iwrotethisforyou.

A leap of faith

Lately I have been continually caught with a secret smile on my face. I don't even know what to say.


I'm trying hard to take that leap of faith, that chance.

But inside, I'm terrified. I can even see myself self-sabotaging. Trying to push this person that puts a smile on my face, away. I don't understand.

How do you take that chance, if you want it, but it scares you. ...

Frustrating

Whoops. I don't know how this happened. I havn't posted anything on here for a while.

Unfortunately I have a habit to be super enthusiastic about something, to throw myself into for a few weeks or months and then to suddenly stop. Get distracted. Forget. Get busy. And tell myself that I'll get back there evenutally. But sometimes I don't.


It's one of those habits that continually frustrate me. It means, growing up, I tried just about every sport / hobby possible. But with the inability to truly stick to anything. To commit.

However somehow, big, huge, LIFE CHANGING ideas I can commit to, like going on a 6 month exchange. Learning to scuba dive.

So I'll work on the little ones... I think it will be a continual challenge...